guessing game

MS excel is acting up.. and every single click I do, it hangs... and then when I shut it down, it reopens and the whole cycle goes thru again.. and I've been trying for the last half and hour.. which means that I can't work!!! Arrgghh!!!! I think i got hacked or kena virus or something.. 

Anyway, it gives me a chance to post this up. During CNY dinner at my aunt's house, we were looking at some really old pictures. And since she wanted to throw them away, I decided to snatch it up before it ends up in the bin..

So people, start guessing who is who :) 

Sorry, no prizes for those who guess correct cause... I can't really tell which is me either :p

Happy Friday everyone!!!

CNY 2012. the end.

Finally, Chinese New Year is over!!!

...and its the end of all those Chinese new year cookies and dinners... my thighs and tummy says Hallelujah!!!!

Here's how my CNY celebration went..

CNY Eve Dinner @ Grandma's place

+ Dad's 57th Birthday

First ever meet up with relatives, distant cousins, niece & grand-aunty..

I am an aunty!!! I have a 2 nieces... which I just found out..

Shopping with parents & siblings at e@curve

Dinner @ Chew's Residence

Dinner @ Aunty Kim's new apartment

There were couple more visitations and dinners which I didn't mange to take pictures. But all in all, it was a very good CNY celebration.. Lots of food, cookies, catching up on news, laughing, playing,... 

Hope that your CNY celebration was great too!!

Happy Belated CNY everyone!!!

fear

sorry for the lack of updates lately. been really busy with work.. and there was a lot on my mind.

have you ever felt fear? the deep intense uncertain dread feeling that comes and stay even when you don't want it to? and anything and everything you do just seem so pointless. fear of things unknown. of things so uncertain. of the future. of life. of decisions. and no matter how much you try to distract yourself or push it aside, the feeling stays. like a weight in your heart. pulling you down. a burden lodged in your chest. so heavy. so hard. and sometimes when you are alone, tears threaten to come. but stays. stuck in your chest. refusing to acknowledge it. hoping that it will go away. but somehow. it doesn't. 

i feel fear.

yes. the strong confident me. such a foreign feeling. 

i'm human.

i made a decision that will change my life. 2 weeks ago.  

fear. is still here. 

help me, Lord.