It's high time I start blogging again. Made so many promises yet procrastination got in the way. I am back from a 3 week roadtrip with a 5 month old baby in tow. What better time than now?
Anyway, things have been a little topsy turvy lately as we try to settle back home and into a routine. Hannah seems to be extra fussy and clingy. Feeding is all over the place and starting solid food seem to be going down the drain.
For example, this morning she work up crying and refuse to be pacify. She usually wakes up happy and on days when she wakez up unhappy, a little coaching gets her all happy and smiley again. Today, nothing worked. By 11am, I am so tired. We have gone through all her toys and play stations, read half her books and sang all her songs, took her morning nap abeit it was a short one, nursed a couple of times, tried feeding her (tried is the key word), pooped thrice and walked around the house a couple of times. On top of that, I had to prepare lunch and do the laundry.
The rest of the day was slightly better as her mood improved a bit. She was still fussy and clingy but playing merry-go-round with her toys helped in getting some work done. But you know, it's just one of those days.
It's almost midnight now and I finally got her to sleep, in her own crib. It's been a long day. But just now, as I was rocking her to sleep, she put her head on my chest and I could feel her tiny body settling and relaxing. And that made the entire day perfect.
Parenthood is not a bed of roses. There are up times and down times and there are times when you just wondered if there was light at the end of the tunnel. but when that tiny head rest on your chest, and both your heart beats together, it made all the worries and stress just melts away. And there are nothing better in the world than just being her mama, right here, right now.
At least it is for me.. I love you, baby girl!