I'm normally not into politics and consider myself a peace-loving
hippie person. However, its hard to ignore all the politics and news that is flying around lately. I can't go anywhere or do anything without seeing political hype. Don't get me wrong, I'm not against politics and I'm not against people who are into politics. Neither is this post about politics.
For those who don't know, every year, the Boys' Brigade of Malaysia have their Brigade Council Meeting and every alternate year, there would be an election. This year BCM was held over last weekend. It was important to me because its election year and this year, I accepted the nomination to compete for the position of Vice-President of Boys' Brigade of Malaysia. But I guess God has other plans for me because I did not get the post.
After the results was announced, some came to me and said , "I voted for you", which made me happy; some said , "At least you were brave enough to stand up", which I agreed. It's mighty hard and it takes courage and a conviction. Some said, "I am sorry, you didn't get it." Truth is, I am fine. Of cause it hurts, that's the ego saying that I've lost; but more that aside, and I'm OK.
So what made me came to the decision to put myself on the frontline. I thought to myself that since God opened doors, why not? For me, its always a privilege and honour to be able to serve Him. Not everyone is called, and if He calls me, who am I to say 'No' to Him?
When I said 'Yes' to the nomination, I told myself that whatever the results is, I've leave it to God. No campaigning for votes, no talking to people to make myself a better candidate. I wasn't being passive. I did share my belief with those who came to ask me. But results, I left it to Him. Whether if its a 'Yes, you are ready' or 'No, not ever' or 'Maybe, in the future', I believe He knows best.
Oh, I did struggle, knowing deep down I am not qualified, I do not have the experience and just possibly, I might let people down. But I believe that if we all were to remain in that thoughts, we would not move forward. We will all be stuck in the mud of fear and failure.
Change is good, change keeps us moving forward, change gives us vision. No doubt, change can be for better or for worse. But if we don't take the first step, we will never know. A little change, a lot of change, whatever it may be, I call it moving forward. I call it one step closer to achieving my dreams.
Me not getting the post of the Vice President does not mean I've failed. It does not mean that people are fear of change. It does not mean that we are not moving forward. (I believe that the new Brigade President will bring about changes.)
But as for me, I know that I've changed. I know that I'm moving forward. I know that I've overcome my fear. I can now say that I've tried. I've stepped out and it made a difference.
Not being a Vice President does not mean that I cannot continue fighting for my beliefs. There is still other platforms, there will still be open doors. I will continue working towards my dreams and vision. I will continue making this world a better place. I will continue making a difference.
Let us all not be held back by fear of the unknown, let us take a step forward towards our dreams.